I just heard of an online friend (young, meaning my age) had passed away last night. Knowing people who die suddenly just takes the wind out of me and it just seems ever since I entered my 50’s, life and death have come together and are only separated by a very fine line.
I don’t think that I am frightened by death as much as I am frightened by not living my life to its fullest, not having yet accomplished the goals I set out for myself and not having the guts to take action yet, on matters I dwell on in life.
Being confronted by the death of friends, friends parents and all that I read about in the newspapers on tragedies which take lives, has made me realize we should not, I should not, believe that I have time on my side to contemplate, vegetate, procrastinate all that I want to accomplish in my life.
Now I’m not being negative here, though I’m sure some would argue that I am being downright pessimistic. In fact, I feel this has all caused me to rethink the way I look at life and death. My loss of hearing, though sad and complicated, is not life threatening. My desire to lose weight can be life threatening if I fail to take care of my health. My religious beliefs or lack of them is not life threatening.
Time is on our side? I think it is and it isn’t.
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May 27th, 2008 at 9:19 pm
I feel that way too. i am too busy to think about it anyway.