I have to admit, returning to college is not as easy as I may have thought initially. The work is hard but now, the work appears even harder. Maybe its that the honeymoon phase is over and the fun has turned to working more hours on the lessons? or maybe its that when I don’t pay close attention or I find that I’m not hearing the discussion, I lose track and fall behind? Whatever it is, the lessons are becoming more and more complicated.
I can’t help but take it all seriously. I want to learn all thats presented to me and do well and although I don’t give a hoot how others are doing, you can’t help but feel the competitiveness. All in all, whether you’re 21 or 51, the professors don’t discriminate. They’re tough on everyone.
So, getting back to my wanting to start a Sabbatical Sisters Sorority. I just cannot find the time to make a committment to organizing a club. My life has been filled to the rim. Suddenly, I have time to help people with rides, appointments, shopping for them, etc. Suddenly, what started out as as being a whole lot of time for “me,” turns out to be a whole lot of time for others. I’m sure it will get better but for now, I am running out of time for the most important person, myself. If its not studying, its shopping for my parents, if its not that, its going to the library to study, if not that, its taking a parent for a doctors appointment.
Okay, so I’m rambling here but I need to vent that although its been fun up to this point, it still has it’s stress factor. Most people seem to think I sit around doing nothing all day when I’m not in school. I still haven’t found the time to get new tires for my car or take Scooter to get his nails and wings clipped. I gave in a half ass job on a homework assignment Monday and approached the professor today, to ask if I can do it over. Her response was, I don’t grade the homeworks but Pearl, if you did a half ass job, then you lose out on the information you need to know.
Boy, did she hit me between the eyes! She’s absolutely right. I did it carelessly and haphazardly. But so is life. There are those who will do things meticulously to impress others. There are those who will do things meticulously to impress themselves. Then there are those who just don’t do for anyone. There’s a moral here but I don’t know what it is.
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